Cuz only girls say I hate you to the guys that they love

Have you ever though about what being truly alone feels like?

almost 9 pm on a monday night and this is what loneliness feels like to me:

The guy i like is out doing his own thing
.... and i've basically pushed out everyone else out of my life because of him.

Loneliness is what we do to ourselves. No one did this to me, it's a result of my own actions that I am sitting here watching The Bachelor on a monday night wishing I had someone to call right now. Someone that would listen, or come over.

See I met someone a while ago, and I fell for him real hard. As a result, I pushed people out, all people I loved, and would have been here for me had I not neglected them.

I have ignored calls from my family for him.
I have ignored calls from my best friends for him.
I have ignored calls from my sorority sisters for him.
I have ignored calls from my roommate for him.
I have ignored calls from my friends for him.
.... and he has ignored my calls for her.

That's the true definition of loneliness, knowing that you did this to yourself.

-XOXO
currently craving hookah
ARIADNE

ps. i hate him with all my being